~~~ Maudlin self-pity ~~~

Maybe it's the time of year. Maybe I've been doing too much counselling, supporting other people. Maybe I've been listening to too many other people. Or perhaps it's the half bottle of Chardonnay. But all of a sudden I've been overwhelmed with loneliness. Oh, I have friends. Lots of very good friends, who I love dearly. But this is different: this is that primeval longing for a soulmate, someone to share life's ups and downs with, someone to snuggle up to and just be close.

I *had* thought that marriage had burnt it out of me, but obviously not; there's a stubborn ember still flickering. Good for it, and I'll fan it this evening even though it will be painful. We shouldn't ever let our fires go out.